I'LL BE BACK SOON!!!

Bismillah
Salamun 'alaik...

Alhamdulillah, I fee so happy because I'm still alive today.

Like always, today I don't have any good stories to share here, but, at least I can share my feeling with you guys. you know what, I'm so happy to be back again.

I want to see my parents; mom and dad, my siblings; especially kak uda, hafidz and zaim which is my 'bestfriends' and also my brother and sisters-in-law with theirs children.

We're going to celebrate Raya Festival together and our theme colors for this year are purple and pink. what nice color, aren't they? Oh, I just can't wait to show everyone my baju raya. they're might be beautiful like the owner. hehehe, joking, okay?

hmm...
but, the sad thing is, now, i'm not a kid anymore. i'm a big girl now as i'm a teenager and i'm going to be an adult soon. so, i will not get any ang pau but, if i get so, i would probably get so little money, huhuhu... not as much as i was a kid. hehehe, but actually it's not important thing to get during the hari raya. the most important thing during these days are the forgiveness from everyone especially our parents, family, relatives, teachers, friends and all the people that close to us. and don't forget, syawal is also a special month for us as muslims.

like ramadhan, we also required to do lots of ibadah as much as we can, insya Allah. that's why, it' s very necessary to perform the raya pray, pay the zakah, visiting others and also fasting for another 6 days (puasa 6) after the first of syawal.

but, people always got the wrong idea about this month. they thought during hari raya, it is the time for them to enjoy themselves, eat as many as they like and go seeking some entertainments that are not very healthy for them like going to concert and make some party with the hard-drinks (wine, beer, etc.).

hmm...
that's my opinion about hari raya.
oh my, now, i heve started of getting a headache as my head is so painful right now...
anyway, see you on HARI RAYA ESTIVAL. insya Allah!!!

wassalam.

so boring... so starving... so thirsty...

salam...

actually, today i don't have any idea to talk about, so, what can i write here is based on 3 words:

boring...
starving...
and thirsty...

hehehe...

boring

actually, i got some assignments given from my lecturers, but, usually, i prefer to do them at night because for me, morning is the time to do activities like updating blog, friendster and have chat with everyone through yahoo messenger. in the evening, time to sleep and at night is the time to complete all the works such as washing clothes and finish up my assignments, but, thank God, my assignments not so many, so, there's nothing i must worry about.

usually, not every night, actually, i'll have a conversation with my friends, roommates and even him, ustaz. but, since these days, ustaz and i have decided not to telephoned to each other as we have to sit for our final examination after raya, so now, we need times to make some revisions for the exams. so sad, because i'm starting of getting so bored.

starving

instead of boring, right now i'm also suffer from starving. do you believe that i haven't taken any meals for two days? hmm, how dreadful i was. just because of an disloyal friend, i hurt myself. hmm, this is just because i love her but i couldn't aspect that she would ignored me like this. until today, we never have a talk to each other. how disappointed. sometimes, looking at her attitudes like a child, or even like a baby, make me feel annoyed.

let her be...
let her be in her own world...
from now on, i don't want to know anything about her anymore...
she upset me... she hurt me and i will always remember what have she done to me...
she will repay for this...

thirsty

it's a common thing during the fasting days. of course we feel hungry and thirsty, because i havent taken ny ahur this morning...

oh no!
my laptop battery is now flatting...
i got to stop...

wassalam.

Only Human…

Why was I chosen as the only one
Who cannot decide in the end
This reasoning is openly unfair
Like playing hopscotch in a minefield with my friends
I don’t believe in having two or three
One God’s lifestyle that I’ve set
I don’t believe in people I don’t know
Strangers are just friends I haven’t met
All through this life of mine I’ve been alone
The paths of many left behind
Until I find a way to write a song
The words are trapped behind these lips of mine
The human race is in far one big shock
We’ve never been like this before
I’ve studied carefully humanity
And there’s no such thing as human anymore
Of all trials and tribulations I’ve been through
These are the worst of them I swear
And they’ve seemed inferior compared to you
Only must the one whom you most fear…

Who I Am !

(An Excellent poem about the Muslim Woman)

What do you see
when you look at me
Do you see someone limited,
or someone free

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All some people can do is just look and stare
Simply because they can't see my hair

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Others think I am controlled and uneducated
They think that I am limited and un-liberated

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They are so thankful that they are not me
Because they would like to remain 'free'

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Well free isn't exactly the word I would've used
Describing women who are cheated on and abused

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They think that I do not have opinions or voice
They think that being hooded isn't my choice

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They think that the hood makes me look caged
That my husband or dad are totally outraged

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All they can do is look at me in fear
And in my eye there is a tear

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Not because I have been stared at or made fun of
But because people are ignoring the one up above

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On the day of judgment they will be the fools
Because they were too ashamed to play by their own rules

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Maybe the guys won't think I am a cutie
But at least I am filled with more inner beauty

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See I have declined from being a guy's toy
Because I won't let myself be controlled by a boy

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Real men are able to appreciate my mind
And aren't busy looking at my behind

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Hooded girls are the ones really helping the muslim cause
The role that we play definitely deserves applause

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I will be recognized because I am smart and bright
And because some people are inspired by my sight

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The smart ones are attracted by my tranquility
In the back of their mind they wish they were me

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We have the strength to do what we think is right
Even if it means putting up a life long fight

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You see we are not controlled by a mini skirt and tight shirt
We are given only respect, and never treated like dirt

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So you see, we are the ones that are free and liberated
We are not the ones that are sexually terrorized and violated

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We are the ones that are free and pure
We're free of STD's that have no cure

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So when people ask you how you feel about the hood
Just sum it up by saying 'baby its all good' ;)

A Love Story behind a Novel

Bismillah…

Assalamualaikum w.b.t…

Alhamdulillah, I have already finished my English class so now I would like to share with you about an interesting love story that is really touched my heart after reading it.

This book is given the title of, ‘If You Could See me now’, written by Cecelia Ahern.

About the author.

CECELIA AHERN is the daughter of Ireland’s prime minister and the author of two other internationally bestselling novels, PS, I Love You and Love, Rosie and the upcoming There’s No Place Like Here. Foreign rights to her novels have been sold to more than forty countries. Her first novel, PS, I Love You, is now a major motion picture starring Hilary Swank, set to release in 2007. she lives in Dublin, Ireland.

Praise for IF YOU COULD SEE ME NOW:

“A novel full of magic, heart, and surprising romance.”

- Irish Herald

“Cecelia Ahern has written a romantic, whimsical, and beautiful third novel… If You Could See Me Now illustrates what can happen when we see with more than our eyes.”

- BookPage

The overview of the novel.

‘Everything in Elizabeth Egan’s life has its place. Order and precision keep life under control – and keep Elizabeth’s heart safe from dwelling on past hurts. Her role as reluctant mother to her six-year-old nephew leaves little room for error – or any fun. Until the day Ivan comes into their lives. The mysterious Ivan is carefree, spontaneous, and always looking for adventure – all Elizabeth is not. But just when Elizabeth begins to trust him, she learns that Ivan isn’t at all who she thought he was.

Playful and at times intensely moving, this is a novel about how seeing isn’t always believing. Full of Cecelia Ahern’s trademark warmth and poignancy, If You Could See Me Now is a story of enormous heart – and just a little bit of magic.’

Insya Allah, some other times, I will write about the summary for each chapter from this book, so that you will get what is the story about, because I really want you to know about it.

wallahua'lam...

wassalam

She’s The One….

Bismillah…

Assalamualaikum w.b.t…

Alhamdulillah, I’m still alive today, insya Allah. As usual, this morning I don’t have any classes so I spend my free time updating my blog at the library.

I’m so happy today as I’m not sure why. Maybe I can’t wait to be home again this week, insya Allah this Friday, I mean tomorrow, I’m going home and see my family again. I want to see mummy, daddy, kak uda and all the rest of my family, especially my ‘boyfriend’, kamil… hehehe… love you, dear…

Other than that, there’s another reason why I’m so happy today. Last night, I telephoned my ‘best friend’ or ‘sohibii’. We had a very long conversation together. We laughed together and at that time we were also getting to know about each other. We were talking about ourselves, studies and also made some ‘silly’ jokes, hehehe. That was very fun! Alhamdulillah, knowing ‘sohibii’ have changed a lot of things in myself. ‘Sohibii’ has brightened up my days. Thank you, ‘sohibii’!

Ok…

Now, I want to talk about my roommate and at the same time, she’s also can be considered as my best friend too, my new best friend actually, here in CFS Nilai.

She’s from Kelantan but she can speak KL very well as I seldom hear her speaking in Kelantanese dialect. What can I say about her?

Well, she’s a very nice friend. During my studies here, she helps me a lot. Sometimes we always go to the library together as she always accompany me with my studies. And sometimes we also share about our happiness and sadness together. We laugh together, we cry together, we share our problems together. She’s a very caring and concern about other people as she’s not a selfish girl, insya Allah.

When I’m starving and have nothing to eat,
She’s the one who will feed me with her snacks;

When I got some problems;
She’s the one who can be a good listener;

When I got into tears because of my problems,
She’s the one who will hug me and summonsed me up;

When I’m alone – have nothing to do,
She’s the one who will come to me and make me laugh;

When I don’t know about something,
She’s the one who will teach me about;

And above all this… because…
She’s the one who’s lying in my HEART now and forever…

That’s her, Julaiha Syazmira… ‘buah hatiku’….

*This poem is dedicated to someone that very special to me, called Jue. Even though my English is very broken, but I don’t care as long as I want her to know how much I love her with all my heart. I hope she’s going to like it, insya Allah…

wallahua'lam...
wassalam.

Sweet memory…

Bismillah…

Assalamualaikum w.b.t…

Hello and good morning everyone… it has been a long time since I updated this blog… Sorry, as usual, I’m quite busy all these days and i don’t have times to be online.

Actually, today, I don’t have anything to write, but, Insya Allah, I just want to share with you guys the pictures of me and my sister, Kak Uda when we went to watch cinema, ‘The Mummy…’ at the KLCC…

Alhamdulillah....
this is my sweet memory ever! i love my sister so much!
she's apart of my life......
i hope someday we'll be hanging out together again.... just like this...hehehe...

wassalam...