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i know what's right and what's wrong. i am cheerful and out going. it's hard for me to find the one that i want, but once i find the right person, i won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

DO WHAT YOU LOVE

"Do what you love and you'll be good at it. Sounds simple enough. But what if you love reading comics, playing video games and watching korean dramas until your eyes pop out? Is it possible to make a career out of such things? What's the alternative? Spend all your time wishing you were brave enough to take that leap? Don't let fear stop you from doing what you love. Because ultimately, it's about being true to yourself."

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Tuesday 28 September 2010

Puisi tercipta hari ini



Salam.

Hari ini saya berjaya menyiapkan puisi ringkas yang (Insya-Allah) datang dari hati yang sudi berkongsi. Puisi yang sarat dengan perkataan cinta yang menurut saya masih belum selayaknya diterbitkan dalam mana-mana majalah, bertujuan untuk membantu kita semua mencorakkan 'cinta' kita dengan corak-corak yang sangat indah dan suci.

Mendapat ilham daripada kisah-kisah cinta daripada mereka yang sudi berkongsi. Menyedari akan hakikat cinta yang sebenarnya, terus saya nukilkan puisi Corak Cinta ini. Seperti kain perca (alah, yang kita selalu beli buat baju raya tu) cinta juga mempunyai beraneka jenis corak. Dan ini menurut saya, mungkin hanya bisa dilihat oleh mata-mata yang sering memerhati. Bukan saja memerhati dan memandangnya dengan mata yang dua, tapi memandang dengan hati sekali. Jangan tak tahu yang hati juga bisa melihat. Puisi Corak Cinta ini bertujuan ingin menyedarkan kita semua akan corak cinta yang manakah yang 'asli' dan akan 'tahan lama.' Dan saya ingin kita semua sama-sama muhasabah diri, adakah kita sudah mencorakkan cinta kita dengan corak yang paling cantik dan berkualiti? Hati anda, manalah saya tahu. Hehehe... jom kita tepuk dada tanya iman masing-masing. Insya-Allah akan ada jawapannya. Jadi, terimalah puisi ringkas dari saya. Selamat menghayati!


Puisi pertama: Corak Cinta

Cinta ibarat kain perca
Yang di atasnya terukir beraneka macam corak
Corak-corak nan indah
Diukir oleh tangan-tangan seni
Dengan penuh keringat kesabaran
Warna-warninya memikat hati
Kepelbagaiannya membuat hati tertarik
Untuk menjadikannya penyarung jasad
Namun, ada juga
Kain perca yang coraknya tidak begitu menarik
Warnanya pudar, dan corak yang terukir padanya
Bisa membuat mata menjadi sakit
Si pemakainya pula akan dipandang hodoh oleh orang
Begitulah juga sampai kepada cinta
Cinta juga punya corak tersendiri
Adakalanya menambat hati
Adakalanya mengundang sakit di hati
Corak cinta yang sering ditemui
Adalah corak cinta bersulamkan nafsu durjana
Cinta yang diukir atasnya
Dengan corak yang palsu
Penuh dengan tipu daya yang sering membutakan
Corak cinta sebegini rupa
Hanya menambahkan kejelikan si 'pemakai'nya
Namun, jangan salah erti
Ada juga corak cinta
Yang penuh dengan warna-warni pelangi
Corak cinta yang sebegini hanya bisa didapati
Tatkala hati berada sangat dekat dengan Pengukirnya
Percayalah,
Corak cinta inilah yang tidak akan pudar warnanya
Corak cinta inilah yang tidak akan rosak dek 'mesin basuh'
Corak cinta inilah yang tidak akan tercemar dek tangan-tangan kotor
Corak cinta inilah yang akan kekal selamanya...

Saturday 18 September 2010

Curahan


Salam.

Wah, sudah lama nampaknya blog ini tidak terisi dengan kisah-kisah menarik. Maafkan saya kerana sudah terlalu lama meninggalkan blog ini. Sampai dah bersawang dah agaknya. Alhamdulillah baru sekarang diberi kudrat untuk mengemaskinikannya. Tapi tak tahulah nak cerita pasal apa lagi. Sebab semua cerita yang ingin saya kongsikan bersifat agak peribadi dan rasanya tak sesuai pula nak diceritakan kat sini. Maklumlah, sebelum ni sudah beberapa kali ditegur oleh kakak sendiri. Jadi, tak naklah pula mengulangi kesilapan yang sama. Nasihat kakak harus didengari sebab dia lebih banyak tahu tentang penulisan blog ini jika dibandingkan dengan diri saya.

Sengaja saya letak lagu instrumental Aku Bukan Untukmu ini sebagai lagu tema blog saya buat masa ini. Sayaa amat suka dengan rentaknya yang sayup-sayup. Alunan merdunya membuat saya mengenang kembali semua kisah-kisah atau pengalaman hidup yang saya telah jalani di suatu ketika dahulu. Ada yang manis dan ada juga yang pahit. Seperti yang selalu dibilang manusia. Hidup ini tidak kita rasa manisnya jika tidak disaluti dengan pahitnya. Itulah kehidupan di dunia ini. Pahit ataupun manis semuanya harus dijalani. Sama ada kita kuat atau tidak dalam menempuhinya itulah yang menjadi persoalan.

Mengingatkan kisah-kisah silam saya itu kadang kala membuat saya tersenyum sendiri. Segala kenangan indah yang saya cipta di ingatan terasa ingin diulang kembali saat itu. Manisnya. Bahagianya. Indahnya jika diberi peluang untuk mengulangi kejadian-kejadian membahagiakan itu. Namun, ada juga sesetengah kisah yang lain membuatkan air mata saya tidak berhenti mengalir setiap kali mengenang peristiwa-peristiwa yang melukakan hati itu. Tapi, macam saya cakap tadi. Kalau kita tak disajikan dengan kenangan pahit, masakan kita dapat merasai kemanisan hidup seperti yang saya rasakan sekarang.

Alhamdulillah, disebabkan peristiwa-peristiwa pahit itulah saya merasai kebahagiaan sekarang. Saya dapat rasakan hidup saya sekarang lebih bermakna, lebih ada ertinya. Tujuan dan matlamat hidup semakin jelas dari hari ke hari. Benarlah seperti yang dikatakan ramai. Pengalaman merupakan guru terbaik. Pengalaman hiduplah yang banyak mengajar saya tentang erti hidup yang sebenarnya. Tanpa semua pengalaman yang telah saya reka sebelumnya, pasti belum tentu saya dapat mengenali Tuhan saya dengan lebih dekat lagi. Tanpa pengalaman-penglaman itu pasti saya tidak tahu erti menghargai dan menyayangi dengan setulus hati. Segala puji bagi Allah yang mentakdirkan hidup saya begini. Dihiasi oleh pelbagai jenis dan corak ujian yang semakin hari semakin mematangkan saya.

Diharapnya para pembaca sekalian juga sama seperti saya. Kita jangan terlalu memikirkan kejadian lepas yang menyakitkan hati kita sebaliknya ambillah pengajaran daripada kejadian-kejadian itu dan kenangkanlah saat-saat, detik-detik yang bisa membuat kalian tertawa kembali. Dan jangan lupa, sentiasalah kita bersangka baik kepada Allah. Setiap yang terjadi ada imbalan yang disediakan. Yakinlah pada-Nya dan sentiasa bertawakkal kepada-Nya. Insya Allah, kita bakal menjalani hidup seperti biasa dengan hati yang lebih tegar dan utuh setiap kali ditimpa musibah.

Wallahua'lam.

p/s: Aku merindui kakandaku, Wan Fathiyyah, Nur Atiqah dan Noor Farieha.

Friday 17 September 2010

Harapan Tinggal Harapan



Saat pertama kali kumengenalimu
Kagumku terhadap dirimu
Mewujudkan suatu perasaan
Di hatiku
Sungguh aku taksub
Dengan setiap kelebihan dan anugerah
Dihadiahkan Tuhan kepadamu
Sejak itulah
Semakin hari aku ingin mengenalimu
Sehinggalah suatu saat
Aku diberi Tuhan
Suatu kesempatan keemasan
Untuk bertemu denganmu
Apakah ini suatu takdir
Yang dicipta Tuhan
Tanda kasih-Nya kepadaku?
Ketika itu
Aku sedar
Doaku didengari
Ya, bertemu denganmu
Itulah yang aku pinta setiap hari
Sejak kau muncul dalam hidupku
Seri hidupku kian bertambah
Mengubati setiap luka parah
Yang pernah kualami dulu
Segala keperitan yang kualami
Kian beransur pulih
Tatkala Tuhan mempertemukan kita
Kau menjadi motivasi untukku
Dalam setiap hal
Hinggalah saat ini
Sampai pernah aku memasang cita-cita
Ingin berjuang bersamamu kelak
Namun,
Menerima khabaran itu
Seolah-olah membuatkan nadiku berhenti
Denyutan jantungku kian perlahan
Dadaku terasa sesak sekali
Apakah benar?
Mengapa ini yang terjadi?
Oh Tuhan, bukankah Kau sudah memberiku petunjuk
Bahawa apa yang kuimpikan
Bakal menjadi kenyataan?
Tapi mengapa ini yang aku dapatkan?
Hati aku perit
Sudah lebat kukira hujan yang turun
Di hatiku kini
Kini hatimu sudah dipunyai
Tiada hak lagi untukku terus berharap
Harapan hanyalah tinggal harapan
Seperti yang selalu terjadi pada diriku dulu
Angan-angan akan terus menjadi mimpi
Yang tidakkan mungkin bisa jadi kenyataan
Hatiku tertutup kian rapat
Tidak mahu lagi kecewa
Menagih kasih dari insan
Yang hanya wujud dalam imaginasiku
Mustahil untuk dimiliki
Kini kusedar semuanya
Hidupkun kosong
Pandanganku kelam.


Nukilan hamba penagih cinta-Nya,
Nurin Najwa


Nota
: Pernah beberapa kali saya menelusuri kisah sedih sahabat karib saya, Nurin Najwa dalam mencari cinta. Sayu hati saya setiap kali mengulangi sejarah hidupnya yang lalu. Beberapa kali gagal dalam percintaan. Cintanya sering ditolak. Hatinya sering dijadikan mainan perasaan lelaki. Kasihan saya melihat dirinya. Dan puisi ini adalah puisi terbarunya. Sekali lagi dia jatuh dalam lubang yang sama. Pernah saya bertanyakan dirinya, kenapa memendam rasa cinta kalau takut untuk dikecewakan lagi? Sambil tersenyum, dia hanya berkata, "Hazimah, cinta itu datang tanpa kita sedari. Cinta itu sangat unik. Kadang-kadang tiada sebab mahupun alasan yang bisa kita ungkapkan setelah kita jatuh cinta." Saya semakin hairan, lalu bertanya lagi, "tapi, bukankah sakit jika gagal berkali-kali dalam cinta?" Nurin menjawab, "ya, memang tidak dapat dinafikan. Namun, setiap kali perasaan cinta yang datang menyelinap masuk ke dalam hati saya, saya rasa bahagia walaupun saya tahu di akhirnya saya bakal dikecewakan. Dan kini cinta saya musnah lagi. Memang sangat sakit tapi inilah saya, yang hidup hanya menanti cinta tulus yang akan merisik hati." Saya pegun. Walaupun Nurin betah berkata seperti itu, saya tahu betapa sakitnya hatinya kini. Hati saya bertambah pedih tatkala melihat sebutir-sebutir air mata jatuh ke pipi gebunya. Nurin Najwa, apakah kisahmu selepas ini?

Thursday 16 September 2010

Konvoi Raya '10

Rumah Hafidz

Rumah Ibrahim

Rumah Afiqah

Rumah Cikgu Azizan

Rumah Syahidah



SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
EID MUBARAK UNTUK SEMUA WARGA G13th
YANG TERCINTA!

SALAM KETEMU KONVOI RAYA
DI RUMAH HAZIMAH
TAHUN DEPAN.

~INSYA-ALLAH~

Sunday 5 September 2010

Quotes that make me ponder


Salam.

Here are two quotes which I took from novels written by my favorite author, Cecelia Ahern, that I want to share with you. There are very beautiful quotes and they make me ponder and reflect it with myself. Maybe it would make you ponder too.




Let's read the first quote together out loud.

"Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Open your heart and follow where it leads you and remember, shoot for the moon. P.S. I will always love you. (from the book of P.S. I Love You)

So, do you feel what I feel? The answer is no, isn't it? Perhaps you might be thinking what is Hazimah trying to say here?

If you have read the novel P.S. I Love You, maybe you will be able to understand what is the real meaning of the above quote. The above quote is Garry's sayings to his wife, Holy. He told Holy to not be afraid of falling in love again, although after his deceased. He doesn't want Holy to feel guilty if only she has fallen in love with other guy because he is no longer there to take care of her and he wants his wife to continue her life without him. Even though Garry knows how much Holy loves him, but he doesn't want her to live on her own. He believes that there must be someone who could replace him as a new lover (perhaps a good husband) to look after Holy. So, that's why he told Holy, "Don't be afraid to fall in love again."

However, I interpret it based my own perspective. If someone tells me to not be afraid to fall in love again, I will immediately tell him/her, "No. I am afraid to fall in love again." Why? Because guys love to make fool of me and there's no way I could trust them anymore. I will never give my trust to them because they will take it for granted and use it for a bad purpose. The other reason why I'm afraid to fall in love again is because guys love to break my heart. I don't know why. Maybe it's because they enjoy doing it. They are not really serious loving me and so they think that I might feel the same way too. I'm afraid to fall in love again because now my heart is broken into pieces and it is really hurt and I need some time to find a suitable cure for it. If I don't do so and start to fall in love with any other guy, I'm sure it will turn into ashes. There will be no more part of my heart left inside me.

What about the next line? "Open your heart and follow where it leads you." I always ask myself whenever I read this phrase, "why should I open my heart to those useless guys, who love to make fool of me?" Sometimes when I tend to follow everything that my heart tells me to do, it'll bring me to destruction and I would feel disappointed and frustrated in the end. Because I know that if we act upon something based on our heart, it'll destroy us without we realizing it. Don't you think? That's why now I'm holding to a new principle. Follow what your mind tells you, but not what your heart tells you. However, in certain circumstances we still need to follow our heart sometimes. (no need to mention here)

Thus, what can I conclude for the first quote is that, no matter what people will say about me but I'm still afraid to fall in love again and I have no intention to fall in love again at all and also I will not open my heart to any guys (who are not sincere to me) to become my soul mate. I won't follow where my heart wants to lead me because I know it'll ruin my life someday.




How about the second quote?

"Memories were fine but you couldn't touch them, smell them or hold them. They were never exactly as the moment was, and they faded away with time."

Yes, I totally agree with this quote. You see, memories are something that we create and store inside our memory box, which is our mind. Memories can be either pleasant or unpleasant and sweet or bitter memories. Memories are things that we want to remember for the rest of our life. But there's only one thing about memories that people are not pleased with. Memories cannot be touched nor smelled nor held. Memories are invisible to our sight but we still can feel their presence.

Since I've lived for about 20 years, I have created so many memories. Memories with my friends, memories with my family and memories with other groups of people like teachers, lecturers and also memories with all my heart breakers. If I were given the chance to turn back time, I wouldn't want to meet those guys and I would want to correct all the mistakes that I had committed and continue my life with a carefree heart. I wouldn't let any bad thing happen to me. But I'm not regret for what had happened to me because I believe that everything happens for a good reason. Allah said so in the Quran and I trust Him.

What about you?

Bab 9 Semanis Kurma Cinta


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Aku cepat-cepat sign in Yahoo Mailku dan buka peti inbox. Dikhuatiri adikku, Iman, ada mengirimkan mel kepadaku. Alhamdulillah, ada! Tapi emel yang dikirimnya semalam pendek saja. Hanya dua perenggan saja. Tak apalah, asalkan dapat tahu perkembangan Iman di kampung pun dah dikira mencukupi.

Assalamualaikum, Abang Hidayat yang dicintai sepenuh hati,

Abang Hidayat apa khabar? Iman di sini sihat-sihat saja. Semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. Maklum sajalah cuti sekolah panjang. Iman pun tak tahu nak buat apa kat rumah. Tapi selalu dipanggil pihak sekolah untuk tolong jadi fasilitator untuk program-program amal. Semalam pun Iman baru balik dari satu program ke rumah anak-anak yatim. Seronok sangat! Abang Hidayat macam mana pulak kat sana? Ada orang buli lagi tak? Kalau ada cakap je kat Iman. Nanti Iman ajar diorang cukup-cukup. Hehehe.

Abang, sejujurnya Iman rindu sangat kat Abang Hidayat. Tapi Iman tak pernah lupa untuk berdoa semoga Allah sentiasa permudahkan urusan abang kat sana. Oklah bang. Sampai sini dulu emelnya. Nanti Iman emel Abang Hidayat lagi ya? Jaga diri!

p/s: Oh ya, bang. Tok Bidin dengan anak-anak buah dia masih mencari loket ibu yang hilang tu. Kalau dah jumpa Iman bagitau abang segera ya.

Titipan cinta dan rindu dari negeri jelapang padi,

Iman.

Ya, Allah betapa aku turut merinduimu duhai adikku. Tanpa kusedari air mataku berlinangan.

Ikuti sambungannya di laman sesawang Aksara Keraian. SELAMAT MEMBACA!

Saturday 4 September 2010

When people ask me about love...


Salam.

When people start asking me about love, I become blur. I really don't know how to respond to their questions. To be frank, I don't know anymore how to express myself about thing called "love."

What is love?

A very common question that is usually asked to teenagers like us.

Love. Consists of four letters. L.O.V.E and it's very easy to pronounce. If we ask people about love, sure they can answer it very well. Because many of them are experts in love things which is very contradict with myself. Although I also did experience love before myself, but I still cannot interpret the meaning of love itself. Because love is not as simple as its spelling and pronunciation. Love is very complicated and its very hard to be put into words. Love is too broad and maybe only those who had experienced the "true love" in their lives might help me explain what love is all about.

Love... love... love....

Who doesn't want to be loved? I 'm sure not some but all of us want to be loved by someone that we love. If you disagree with me, it is either you are alien who came from other galaxy or you are a liar? Which one is true? Hopefully neither one. Just kidding.


Like I said previously, love can be broad in terms of its definition itself. But here, in today's issue, when we hear the term love, what does come across our mind? What exactly love here that I'm referring to? Yes, love between male and female.

Honestly, have you experienced love before?

To be frank, I did.

Come one. It's not that bad to fall in love with someone. If we think from the positive side, we would learn so many things about life, through love. Yes, from my experience loving people for about 3 years long, I learned uncountable things about life in this world. Thanks to all my "heart breakers" anyway for breaking my heart. If you didn't do so, I wouldn't be able to know my True Love much closer and I would say, perhaps if we hadn't met before, I might not realize the real reason of why I have been brought to this world.

So, what am I trying to say here is that don't ever feel regret for loving someone before. Yes, of course we must regret for the sin that we had committed but we should know that Allah loves those who commit sins but afterward he or she ask for His forgiveness. So, don't you think that Allah also create sins for a good reason?

My question here is, does falling in love with someone (someone who is none mahram to us) is considered as sinful too?

That's why, when people keep asking me about this thing, I don't really have a specific answer. However, I do have my own opinions about it. If people still asking me the same question whenever they meet me, I would come out with two answers. One, Islam is very kamil. It's very complete. Everything has been explained by Allah in His holy book, al-Quran. It's our job to open the book and look for it. Two, it depends on oneself. As for me, I have my own principle when it comes to "love" and I'm still holding to that principle wherever I go. What is my principle? D o you want to know?

My principle is very simple. Everything is clear in the Quran and Hadith. So, obviously both are our sources of knowledge. I just follow what had been taught by Allah and His messenger in those sources and practice it in my daily lives. Coz I know anything that has been stated by Allah is for my own good. Don't you feel what I feel?

My brothers and sisters,

Allah is very caring to all His servants, including us. So, we don't doubt Him instead we must trust Him. Everything He did is for our own good. So, just follow His path then we won't lost.

More stories about love? Just wait for the next entries.

There are lots of thing I wanna to share with you about love. And for the next entry, and onward, I will share with you a story of my friend which had experienced love with males. I already got her permission and alhamdulillah, she approved in the hope that her story will give lessons for all teenagers who are dealing with the "cinta monyet."

Til next time.

Wednesday 1 September 2010

Ramadhan



Salam.


Ramadhan,
The most respected month
Among other months in Islam
It is the month of ibadah
The month of rewards
The month of rahmah.

During the month of Ramadhan,
All the gates of naar are closed
All the gates of jannah are wide opened
Just for us, my dear Muslim friends
And the satan is being tied
No more evil force would influence to do the bads
Thus, be happy everyone.

In Ramadhan,
People compete with each other
In their worship
To gain mardhatillah
Performing saum
Performing solah
Comitting sadaqah
Helping others
Many good deeds committed by us
Just to get His bless.

In Ramadhan,
Enemies become friends
Friends become relatives
Relatives become family
And family are those who are very close to our heart.

In Ramadhan,
People obey all commands of Allah
And avoid all his prohibitions
Being kind to others just for the sake of Him
Ramadhan,
Is where our sustainance is multipled
The most special thing about Ramadhan
There is one night
A very special night
A night which is the best night compared to a thousand month
It's called - Lailatul Qadr

Ramadhan,
Why must you leave me?
I don't want to stop performing ibadah
Not just in Ramadhan, I know, but in other months too
Although our rewards are being doubled,
Ibadah is a must for us to stay close to Him.

I need Ramadhan,
Because it's a station
It's a motivational program, for me
To increase not the quantity
But the quality of my ibadah
Towards Him.

10 more days are left
And Ramadhan will depart
Saying goodbye to all its lovers.

Don't just sit without do something for it
Our last moments of Ramadhan are getting closer
I don't want it to leave me
I just want it to stay
With me forever
How about you?

p/s: Ramadhan, I'm gonna miss you.


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