Puzzle 18: For all the things I said

                                                                                                                                                                          Looking up the sky -

I ask myself "Who am I?" -

Deep down inside - it's whispering -

"Your a servant of God - His caliph." -

But the question is -

Am I really a good servant of God? -

The answer lies with Him -

As I sit down -

I keep my mind wandering around -

Going back - to the past -

Remembering about all I had done -

* * *

As I looked around me -

I was always in glee -

Somehow sadness - was attacking -

And nobody - cared to mollify me -

As I was living - in a past again -

Accompanied by the heavy but calm rain -

Long I stood - feeling lonely - 

Only He was waiting - without I noticing -

Remembering the sins - I had committed -

Even until today -

At times makes me feeling a little run down -

At times give me some strength to fix things up -

Only He could motivate me - of doing so -

Because humans are being ignorant -

To remind me and so -

* * *

For all the things I said -

I'm not putting blame on them -

Nor I tried to condemn them -

Showing how much I understand -

Their nature - and mine too -

We are humans - after all

Together - we are forgetful -

However -

Aren't we brothers -

Who are responsible - 

To keep advising - and reminding each other -

About life - in this world - and the hereafter -

For all the things I said -

Remembering you as my friends -

I have one simple request -

Please don't ever leave me - behind -

Coz I'm not as strong - as you thought I would be -

Sometimes my faith increases -

Sometimes my faith decreases -

And when it decreases -

You know who would laugh loudly -

Celebrating his victory -

Of defeating me -

By that time -

Regret is useless -

Friendship is pointless -

My dear brothers and sisters in Islam -

Help me out - of the darkness -

That I have been suffering - for so long -

Grab my hand -

Bring me back - to the light -

Which will lead me - to reach our God -

I want to be good -

I want to be loved -

By Him - and by those who He loves too -

Note: Let's think about the message of this poem together. Shall we?