Puzzle 20: Let Me Cry

After it has been hurt

My heart is definitely injured

Because of their actions

Which truly made me sick

Abandonment of one old friend

Isn't my style in friending them

But they actually did it to me

They left me

Without saying anything

They even left me

Without saying goodbye

They distance themselves from me

As if I'm a stray woman

Who's searching for love

Do I really deserve 

To be treated this way

Do they have the rights

Upon hurting my feeling

They said we are friends

That we shall not be apart

No matter what will come in between

But they left me first

And never turning back

Maybe later if I die

They will never realize

As they are enjoying their lives now

Without having to think of the past

The past memories we built together

Are fading away with their departure

As I sat still alone under the night sky

Witnessing the beautiful twinkling stars

Reminding me of them

My old unforgettable friends

Never knowing the real reasons

I have been left

But all I know now is that

I wanna cry as much as I want

Let me cry

Just for this time

I promise this will be the last time

I ever let my tears conquer my eyes

For my forgetting friends.

P.s. : This poem is written for my forgetting friends. You never know how much I love and treasure this friendship. However, the distance and gap that you created between us have made me want to be further from you too. Everyday when I look at my phone, you don't know how much I want to press the keypads and send messages of friendship to you, as a symbol of my remembrance upon our friendship. But your silence gives me the hint that maybe you don't want to be any closer to me. Probably, there is a heart that you want to keep until you're willing to sacrifice mine. I just can't stop my mind from making assumptions about you but somehow when you act coldly towards me, it kind of convinces me that perhaps you're no longer wanting me to fill up some space in your heart. It's okay, I accept that anyway. No friendship is built under compulsion. But there's nothing much to say right? Let my tears re-tell the stories of how we met and how  we almost come to the end of this friendship.