Puzzle 28: A birthday wish for you

I like the way we met

When we worked on the play

Kronologi Cinta

I was the actor

And you were the director

Together we made it a success

Together we did it with the rest

I like the way you look at me

With your eyes; full of fierce

It scared me at first

Whenever I stared at you

You would glance at me

And turn your back

But I did know how hard you tried 

To greet me with a delight

I like the way we became friends

As we shared problems and obstacles in life

Many things we learned together

As we becoming closed to each other

I like the way you talk to me

You always sound cynical

Whenever I start the conversation

But being cynical

Makes you exactly who you are

With that attribute 'm longing to see you from far

I like the way you work on your works

Hardworking, patience, steadfast 

And doesn't like to be disturbed

The focus you have

Shows how much serious you are in your studies

You're my role model

In things which I can't handle

You're my sunshine

My only sunshine

Which brightens up my days 

You're moonlight

My only moonlight

Which glows beautifully at nights

In commemoration of your birthday

I write this simple poem

Replacing myself 

For not being able to be with you

On your birthday

I pray to Him may you be blessed

Not just today

But tomorrow and always

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

MY KAKAK ^_^V  


May, 27

Specially to,

Kak Khaty, my dear kakak aka kawan gadoh :P

  

Puzzle 27: 10 things I hate about you

                    I hate the way you talk to me
                    And the way you cut your hair

                    I hate the way you drive my car

                    I hate it when you stare

                    I hate your big dumb combat boots
                    And the way you read my mind

                    I hate you so much it makes me sick
                    It even makes me rhyme

                    I hate it...

                    I hate the way you're always right

                    I hate it when you lie

                    I hate it when you make me laugh
                    Even worse when you make me cry

                    I hate it when you're not around
                    And the fact that you didn't call

                    But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you

                    Not even close

                    Not even a little bit
                    Not even at all

- Quoted -

:')

Puisi: Pergi! Tinggalkan aku sendiri!

Entah kenapa, hati sedih saja sekarang ini

Rasa semakin ingin menjauhkan diri

Sejauh-jauhnya

Tak akan biarkan diri ini dijejaki lagi

Oleh dia

Andai dia mencari
Akukan terus bersembunyi

Namun

Selangkah aku melarikan diri

Seribu langkah perasaan itu mendekati

Dadaku sesak
Nafasku seolah-olah terhenti

Cukuplah!

Cukuplah dengan mainan perasaan yang mendustai

Aku sudah letih
Sudah jemu
Sudah muak
Dengan sandiwara ini

Pergi jauh-jauh

Tinggalkan aku sendiri

***

Jika kau berasa kecewa

Pandanglah ke sungai
Airnya tetap mengalir
Biarpun berjuta batu yang menghalang

Jika kau berasa sedih
Pandanglah ke langit
Kakkan sedar bahawa
Allah itu sentiasa bersamamu

 

 

 

p/s: Selalu ingat pesan Kak Uda. "Tolonglah jangan letak apa-apa post yang berkaitan dengan hati dan perasaan di blog. Orang lain akan berpandangan serong dekat adik." Tapi kenapa perlu peduli? Ini blog aku. Ruangan aku. Aku bebas menulis apa saja yang terlintas di ruang fikiranku. Asal tidak menyebarkan ajaran sesat (na'udhubillah), tangan ini akan terus menulis hingga ke akhirnya. Inilah yang aku pelajari daripada penulis-penulis tersohor pada abad ke 19 dan 20 yang lalu.

:'(

Puisi: Hujan, sampaikanlah...

Merenung ke luar jendela

Kedengaran titisan hujan turun ke lantai bumi

Dingin pagi menusuk ke jiwa

Namanya terdetik di dasar hati

Iringan-iringan hujan yang membasahi

Mengenangkanku terus kepadanya

Namun entah diriku diingati

Setelah sekian lama tidak berjumpa

Setiap kenangan kita ku bawa bersama

Seiringan dengan angin hujan yang berlalu 

Jika dulu kau yang istimewa

Mungkin kini kau bukan lagi padaku

Kau pasti tertanya
Kenapa?

Sebab...

Pernah sekali kubertanya
Siapa aku padamu
Dan katamu "bukan sesiapa"
Hanya teman biasa seperti teman-teman lain juga 

Selebat itu tangisan hujan didengari

Sedalam itu jualah tangisan hati dirasai

Maka hujan sampaikanlah

Salamku padanya

Yang sedang rebah dalam lena 

Dibaluti dingin pagi yang mendamaikan

p/s: Menemani Na menyiapkan bahan untuk presentation LOPnya esok. Bersungguh-sungguh Na pagi ni. Semoga Allah permudahkan semuanya ya. Semoga berjaya, Naku sayang.

:')

Puisi: Carilah...

Carilah kekayaan di sebalik kemiskinan

Carilah kecantikan di sebalik kehodohan

Carilah kecerdikan di sebalik kejahilan

Carilah kelembutan di sebalik kekerasan

Carilah kelebihan di sebalik kelemahan

Carilah kekuatan di sebalik kesakitan

Carilah kejayaan di sebalik kegagalan

Carilah keramaian di sebalik kekurangan

Carilah kepastian di sebalik kebingungan

Carilah keistimewaan di sebalik keganjilan

Carilah kedamaian di sebalik kesengsaraan

Carilah kejujuran di sebalik kebohongan

Carilah ketenangan di sebalik kegelisahan

Carilah kemanisan di sebalik kepahitan

Carilah kebersamaan di sebalik kesepian

Carilah kebahagiaan di sebalik kesedihan 

Carilah keramahan di sebalik kebengisan

Carilah keriangan di sebalik kedukaan

Carilah pertemuan di sebalik perpisahan

Carilah persamaan di sebalik perbezaan

Carilah kebaikan di sebalik kejahatan

Carilah permulaan di sebalik penamatan

Carilah kecintaan di sebalik kebencian

Carilah kehidupan di sebalik kematian

Hidup ini suatu pengembaraan

Suatu pencarian

Hidup kita di dunia ini

Haruslah tidak berhenti daripada terus mencari

Mencari sesuatu di sebalik sesuatu

Kerana yang dicari itu sering tersembunyi

Dan ia tidak akan bisa didapati

Jika diri tidak mula mencari

Wahai da'i

Jangan pernah berhenti dari pencarian ini

Cari, cari dan teruskan mencari

Mencari tanpa lelah

Tanpa resah

Tanpa gundah

Yang dicari akan ditemukan

Jika yang mencari terus tabah

Sekalipun letih datang menerjah

Diri akan terus tegar

Untuk terus mencari sesuatu yang hilang

Tanpa jemu

Tanpa henti

Teruskan mencari

Dengan bantuan dan izin-Nya

Yang dicari itu pasti ditemukan

Nota: Kadang-kadang kita tak nampak hikmah di sebalik sesuatu yang Allah turunkan kepada kita. Sesuatu yang kelihatannya berat untuk diterima akal fikiran, apatah lagi hati. Sesuatu yang diri ini terasa lemah untuk melaluinya. Kadang-kadang mata kita dibutakan dengan setiap sesuatu yang buruk yang Allah  jadikan di dunia ini. Kadang-kadang kita terlepas pandang bahawa setiap yang Allah jadikan untuk kita di dunia ini ada sisi positif dana negatifnya. Kenapa? Kenapa kita begitu? Bukankah kita adalah hamba-Nya yang beriman? Beriman akan setiap qada' dan qadarnya? Mengimani segala nikmat dan ujian yang diturunkan-Nya. Mengimani kuasa-Nya menciptakan dan memusnahkan sesuatu hanya dengan sekelip mata. Namun, itulah kita. Tapi janganlah begitu. Kita harus ingat bahawa terdapat Ying di sebalik Yang. Terdapat positif di sebalik sesuatu yang negatif. Tak semua benda yang Allah jadikan di dunia ini buruk belaka. Mungkin buruk pada rupa tapi cantik hiasan dalamannya. Dan tak semua yang jahat akan kekal jahat selamanya. Pada satu lagi sisinya terdapat kebaikan yang tidak diduga. Siapa sangka, bukan? Oleh itu, jangan berhenti mencari. Carilah. Kita tidak akan rugi. Carilah, kita tidak akan dikecewakan di akhir pencarian kita ini.

:')

Puzzle 26: Like mother, like sons

Salam.

Last two days, in the morning, before I went to my Methods of Da'wah (MOD) class, I was supposed to have breakfast with my friend. While waiting for him, I sat at one of the tables at HS cafe, the one which was near the river. Because I love sitting there. Further from the crowds and there I could find some peace. 

Alhamdulillah. 

As I waited for him, I opened my literature book and flipped some pages. I started my reading.

Minutes had passed and he still didn't show up. Never mind. I bet he was still on his way as he said he would try his best to make it on time. But I told him that he should not force himself. If he thought that he could not make it, then It was okay with me. It was just that I wanted to use the opportunity to discuss a few things with him. Yet if Allah did not will, then what more could we say.

At the two tables forward from the one which I was sitting at, sitting a women with her three children. The children were all boys in different colored shirts. I guessed the women must be in her 30s because undoubtedly, she looked young to me. But the thing is she was in her black abaya and a niqab covered her face. But I still want to say that she looked like a young mother. At first, I though she was an Arab, but later I heard some Malay words uttered by her to her sons. What more, all the three boys were Malays and that made me more confident to assume that she was a actually a Malay. 

I looked at them with my sharp eyes. I observed many things. Well, you know I am an observant type. I like to observe many things which occur surround me. Seeing the way the mother talked to her sons was enough to tell me how loving she was to all those three. Such a typical Muslim mother the woman was. I was attracted to some of their conversations which I barely heard from other typical Malay Muslim mothers with their children. 

Let me flashback what I had witnessed at HS cafe last two days :)

After finishing their meals, the boys were walking towards the river in front of them and looked into it. Together all three, they stood at the edge of the river and talking to one another about what they saw inside the river. Inside the river, they actually saw a a big lizard so-called biawak, swimming from far. 

Mother: Don't go near, boys.

The boys were so enthusiastic when they saw the cute biawak swimming as it wished. Suddenly, the mother saw one of her sons threw something into the river. A medium-sized stone I guessed.

Mother : Hey, don't throw anything to it. Isn't it also a slave of God?

I felt amazed the moment I heard the mother said that to her sons. 

Mother : Boys, you better learn something about this because I'm going to give you a quiz after this.

Subhanallah, then I understood what the mother was actually doing at that time. She was actually educating her sons to think. To think about things they saw in their surroundings. She was trying to make her sons got to know their only God, Allah the Almighty, by looking at all His creations. What a beautiful way of educating the children.

Boys : Okay! (thumbs upped) 

Boy 1 : That is very good!

It tickled me hearing the words from one of her sons, the one who wore light blue shirt, said that to his mother. It was so much so showing that how much he couldn't wait for the quiz.

Mother : Be careful, boys. Stay further.

As the boys returned to their mother who was still sitting at the table, they told her everything the saw about the biawak. Then, they related to the next topic which they continued talking about animals; about ants, scorpions and such. I could see the mother listened to her sons' stories very keenly and patiently. She also somehow showed her interest in getting to know what could be the next topic that her sons might come out with afterwards. 

After that, the boys asked for their mother's permission to take a walk along the river side and the mother allowed so as long as they would come back as soon as possible.

Later, as the boys returned, the mother asked her sons to do her some favor. What do you think it was?

She asked her sons to pick as many rubbish they could see surround them. This was totally amazing! I've never met a mother who is willing to ask her kids to pick up rubbish surround them in my whole life. Again I was pretty sure that she was educating her sons about cleanliness. Shame of those who threw rubbish not into its appropriate places and here the kids were collecting them to be put into the dustbin. 

Mother : Now, I want all of you to pick up as much rubbish as possible. Pick up any rubbish you see around you.

Boy 2 : But I need to go to the toilet first...

The mother laughed and I laughed either. What a cute little boy.

It really melt my heart seeing those cute boys competing among themselves to collect as many rubbish as possible because their mother told them that she would reward them with something for their good deed.

Boy 2 : Kutiplah that sampah! 

Boy 3 : Kejaplah... 

Boy 1 : Oh, nak ambik plastik, kan?

Mother : Okay, go and clean up everything. Insya-Allah, Allah will reward you. Make sure you wash your hands after this, okay?

Much much later, as the boys were collecting the rubbish...

Mother : Faster. I want to see who had picked up the most rubbish. There, there are some on the grass... (pointing at some rubbish on the grass)

Boy 2 : Not the leaves...

They continued collecting the rubbish without complaining. They did it happily. 

Boy 2 : (picking up a smoke under the table)

Boy 1 : Hey, smoke janganlah! Smoke jangan! Mommy, smoke jangan, kan? 

Mother : It's okay. Just pick it up, but make sure you wash your hand, okay?

Boy 1 : Mommy, look here! Mine are two plastics!

Mother : Masya-Allah, very good indeed!

A few minutes later...

Mother : Done?

Boy 1 : I'm the 'maniest!' 

Boy 3 : I'm the heaviest!

Mother : Good, dears! Do you you some rewards?

Boy 2 : I want rewards but I want to ask from Allah. (he walked and hadn't stopped collecting rubbish although his other brothers had finished so)

The boy looked at me, and say...

Boy 2 : Hello. (with a smile)

I : Hello (helloed back) 

After finished cleaning up the area, the mother asked her sons to wash their hands with soap and everything.

Boy 1 : After solat Dhuha, you shall reward us.

Mother : Okay, later after you had completed your Dhuha prayer.

As minutes passed by...

Mother : Have you washed your hands, boys?

Boys : Dah!

Mother : Okay, now, go to masjid and make your Dhuha.

Boys : Okay! ^____^

And now the mother was actually training her sons to perform Dhuha prayer whenever possible. 

Subhanallah, I am so proud and respect the way the mother educated her sons in order to become Muslims. I hope someday I will do the same to my children as well. I don't want to pass the responsibility to the teachers because I realize now that it is actually the responsibility of the parents to take care of their children and making them good Muslim leaders in the future. 

May Allah bless the family and mine as well.

Abu Huraira, narrated that the Prophet  said, "Every child is born with a true faith (i.e. to worship none but Allah Alone) but his parents convert him to Judaism or to Christianity or to Magainism, as an animal delivers a perfect baby animal. Do you find it mutilated?" Then Abu Huraira recited the holy verse: "So set you (O Muhammad SAW) your face towards the religion of pure Islâmic Monotheism Hanifa (worship none but Allâh Alone) Allâh's Fitrah (i.e. Allâh's Islâmic Monotheism), with which He has created mankind. No change let there be in Khalq­illâh (i.e. the Religion of Allâh Islâmic Monotheism), that is the straight religion, but most of men know not. [Tafsir At­Tabarî, Vol 21, Page 41] " (30.30).

:')

Palestine:15 May, it's Nakba Day

Sixty years ago, more than 700,000 Palestinians lost their homes and belongings, their farms and businesses, their towns and cities. Jewish militias seeking to create a state with a Jewish majority in Palestine, and later, the Israeli army, drove them out. Israel rapidly moved Jews into the newly-emptied Palestinian homes. Nakba means “catastrophe” in Arabic, and Palestinians refer to the destruction of their society and the takeover of their homeland as an-Nakba, “The Catastrophe.”

Ten Facts about the Nakba

1. The Nakba is a root cause of the Israeli/Palestinian problem.
It is marked on May 15, the day after Israel declared its independence in 1948.

2. This traumatic event created the Palestinian refugee crisis.
By the end of 1948, two-thirds of the Palestinian population was exiled. It is estimated that more than 50% were driven out under direct military assault. Others fled as news spread of massacres committed by Jewish militias in Palestinian villages like Deir Yassin and Tantura.

3. Jewish leaders saw “transfer” as an important step in the establishment of Israel.
Jewish leaders spoke openly of the need to use military clashes to expel as many Palestinians as possible before other Arab countries could come to their defense. The Haganah militia’s Plan Dalet was the blueprint for this ethnic cleansing. Israel’s first Prime Minister, David Ben Gurion, said “We must use terror, assassination, intimidation, land confiscation, and the cutting of all social services to rid the Galilee of its Arab population.” (See what other leading Israelis have said about transfer.)

4. Hundreds of Palestinian villages and towns were destroyed.
Jewish forces depopulated more than 450 Palestinian towns and villages, most of which were demolished.

5. Palestinian property and belongings were simply taken.
The newly-established Israeli government confiscated refugee land and properties without respect to Palestinian rights or desires to return to their homes.

Israeli historian Tom Segev reported that: “Entire cities and hundreds of villages left empty were repopulated with new [Jewish] immigrants… Free people – Arabs – had gone into exile and become destitute refugees; destitute refugees – Jews – took the exiles’ places in the first step in their lives as free people. One group [Palestinians] lost all they had while the other [Jews] found everything they needed – tables, chairs, closets, pots, pans, plates, sometimes clothes, family albums, books radios, pets….

6. Some Palestinians stayed in what became Israel.
While most Palestinians were driven out, some remained in what became Israel. Although citizens of the new state, they were subject to Israeli military rule until 1966. Today, Palestinian citizens of Israel comprise nearly 20 percent of Israel’s population. They have the right to vote and run for office, but more than 20 Israeli laws explicitly privilege Jews over non-Jews. Nearly one-quarter of Israel’s Palestinians are “internally displaced” persons, unable to return to the homes and lands that were taken from them.

7. There are still millions of Palestinian refugees dispersed around the world.
Today, there are 4.4 million Palestinian refugees registered as such with the United Nations, and at least another estimated 1 million who are not so registered. Thus a majority of the Palestinian people, around 10 million persons, are refugees.

8. Refugees have internationally-recognized rights.
All refugees enjoy internationally-recognized rights to return to areas from which they have fled or were forced out, to receive compensation for damages, and to either regain their properties or receive compensation and support for voluntary resettlement. This right has been explicitly acknowledged in recent peace agreements in Cambodia, Rwanda, Croatia, Bosnia-Herzegovina, Guatemala, Northern Ireland, Kosovo, Sierra Leone, Burundi, and Darfur. This right was affirmed for the Palestinians by the United Nations Resolution 194 of 1948. Israel, however, does not allow Palestinian refugees to return, although a Jew from anywhere in the world can settle in Israel.

9. Justly resolving refugee rights is essential to Middle East peace.
An overwhelming majority of Palestinians believes that refugee rights must be fulfilled for peace between Palestinians and Israelis to endure. And according to an August 2007 poll by the Jerusalem Media and Communications Center, nearly 70 percent believe that refugees should be allowed to return to “their original land”.

10. The Nakba has implications for Americans.
Israel’s ongoing denial of Palestinian rights – and unconditional U.S. financial and diplomatic support for Israel – fuels anti-American sentiment abroad. A 2002 Zogby poll, conducted in eight Arab countries showed that “the negative perception of the United States is based on American policies, not a dislike of the West.” The same poll showed that “the Palestinian issue was listed by many Arabs among the political issues that affect them most personally.” Resolution of the Palestinian refugee issue would undoubtedly improve America’s international image, by proving that the U.S. government supports the consistent application of international law.

[Source:http://www.facebook.com/harutoaso?ref=ffa#!/photo.php?fbid=417755411581466&set=a.129148023775541.17193.107299275960416&type=1]

p.s.: Let's show our concern towards our brothers and sisters in Palestine. Don't forget to make du'a for them. May Allah protect them and give them freedom. Yup, Palestine, tomorrow it will be free. Insya-Allah.

:')

Puisi: Hidup ini

Hidup ini

Seperti sebuah layar perak

Memainkan satu persatu episod kehidupan

Pengarahnya, Tuhan

Krewnya, malaikat

Pelakonnya, manusia

Propsnya, alam 

Pentasnya, dunia

Drama pun bermula

Saat Tuhan mengarahkannya

3,2,1... ACTION!

Hidup ini

Umpama sebuah tinta emas

Ilhamnya dari Tuhan

Kalamnya pula dari manusia

Penanya, akal dan hati

Pembacanya tentulah generasi mendatang

Di awalnya ada permulaan

Di akhirnya ada penamatan

Suatu hari

Segalanya bakal tersiar

Buat tatapan semua

Berbahagialah mereka 

Yang hidupnya dihiasi bunga-bunga amal nan indah

Terkutuklah mereka

Yang hidupnya dicemari titik-titik hitam dosa dan noda

Dan hari itu

Segala penyesalan tiada berguna lagi

Sedikit pengampunan tidakkan dapat dicicip lagi

***

Orang sering berkata

Hidup tanpa dugaan

Ibarat lautan tanpa ombak menghempas badai

Hidup tanpa cubaan

Ibarat hujan tanpa guruh dan kilat saling berdentuman

Manusia yang hidupnya sepi dari ujian

Ibarat sebuah robot tidak berperasaan

Mengikut arus kehidupan

Tanpa arah tujuan

Anggaplah hidup ini

Seperti hujan lebat yang turun melanda bumi

Di hujungnya ada sang pelangi yang menanti

Andai hujan itu lencun membasahi

Senyuman sang pelangi kan mengubat hati

Anggaplah hidup ini

Sukarnya seperti meraba-raba dalam kegelapan malam

Namun di sana

Ada purnama yang menemani

Gelapnya malam buat kita tersesat

Ternyata ada bulan sudi menunjukkan arah

Hidup ini indah

Jika kita tahu memanfaatkannya dan mensyukurinya

Namun

Hidup inikan jadi sukar

Jika kita membazirkannya dan mensia-siakannya

p.s.: Hiasi hidup kita dengan tiga benda. IMAN, ISLAM DAN IHSAN. Oppss! Ada lagi satu yang tertinggal. TAQWA.

;)

Puzzle 25: Exam tips

Salam.

I used to hear people say that knowledge without practice is just like a tree which doesn't produce fruits or give benefits to other human beings at all. As a Muslim, of course I don't want to be one of those who are so stingy about sharing their knowledge with others. However, there was once my sister said to me that it's okay if we want to be a little bit stingy to others in a matter of study because studying is an ibadah. We should surpass others in anything that carries ibadah purposes. But, I don't prefer that way. To me, as long as we are Muslim brothers and sisters, what ever knowledge may come in, we are obliged to pass it down to others. So that not only us will be blessed by Allah but the knowledge we are passing down to others itself should be containing His blessings as well. Am I right or not? 

Okay. Just straight to the point. Since we have been in exam mood (or mode), I'm pretty sure that some of us may be stressful right now. Some might also think of nothing except planning for getting straight As in this exam or perhaps wanna achieve the Dean's list this time. Well, I guess there's nothing wrong about it, but just wanna tell you guys something that we can altogether ponder upon it. Let's think, what is our main goal of studying in IIUM? Simple question, isn't it? But nobody manages to give precise answers for it. So, what say you? Any response? ^_^

Mardhatillah (blessing of Allah)...

Blessed knowledge...

Bright futures...

Dean's list...

No failing this time...

Many more (you write it down on your own)

These are (seriously) very beautiful ambitions. On the other hand, the main question is that, how are going to do so? How are we supposed to achieve all goals that we have set in life? Is there any good suggestions? Mind to share?

Okay, let me get this straight. Actually, my COMM 1010 lecturer, Madam Nury, always reminds us about the four (important) steps in order to be a successful man/ student.

-  Study hard and study smart

- Pray to Allah sincerely (the core step that we should not overlook because we need to ask His blessings in whatever we do)

- Ask blessings from parents (especially mother, because paradise lies on mother's foot)

- Tawakkal 'alallah

As simple as that. Let's together pray for the best for everyone, regardless how well we know someone or not. Just consider all the Muslims are our brothers and sisters and if you don't shy, pass this tips to your other friends as well. We're gonna observe how many students are honestly use this tips and practice it in their daily lives. 

With the above steps, according to Madam Nury, insya-Allah we will never go wrong and Allah is always there to back us up. He will take into considerations on so many things. This is to say, not just by paying attention in class will be a guarantee for us to score all subjects for a particular semester. Yet, this tips is merely suggestions. I could say it is not applicable to all (most probably). But, it's still doesn't matter for us to do it, right? We will gain reward from Him. Insya-Allah.

Gambatte everyone and please don't waste our time with something useless. Love your time and spare it only on important or urgent activities, like in the case of exam, study would be an appropriate answer.

Wallahua'lam.

Puisi: Rasa hati

Sedenyut nafas jantung pun bertanya

Sedetik rasa jiwaku berkata

Sepatu birumu menemukan kita

Sepatu merahku kau bawa bersama

Namun

Putera hatiku entah di mana

Hati terasa air mata mengalir jua

- Puteri Megawati -

Tiada rupa 

Tanpa suara

Tanpa bicara

Hati berdetik seribu bahasa

Hendak dirayu tiada tempatnya

Hendak menangis tiada sebaknya

Sekelumit hatiku yang ada

Entah apa tujuannya

Namun hatimu

Hatimu jua

- Anisah -

Hati meronta meraung sepi

Di sini kasih di sana simpati

Di sini pergi di sana menanti

Walau sepatu merahmu menjadi saksi

Walau langkahku di sisi langkahmu ke tepi

Namun

Setiap kegelapan malam

Akhirnya pasti menyinar pagi

- Hakimi -

[Puisi dipetik daripada]

p.s.: Puisi yang sangat indah sekali. Terharu membacanya sambil menghayatinya.

:')

Puisi: Saat Dua Hati Kembali Bertemu

Selama ini aku menghitung hari

Akhirnya hari yang dinanti hadir kembali

Ku menunggu 

Sambil menghitung-hitung detik waktu yang berlalu

Dari jauh kulihat 

Seorang gadis ayu melangkah satu persatu

Dalam sepasang persalinan kuning

Sudah kuketahui bahawa itu adalah kamu

Gembira dirasakan menyelubungi diri

Saat mata bertatap mata

Hati bertemu hati

Tak kusangka detik itu kau di sisiku lagi

Setelah sekian lama kita jauh terpisah

Dek masa yang mencemburui

Suka

Gembira

Bahagia

Bila bersalaman berdakapan denganmu

Terasa hangatnya pipi kita berlaga

Bercium kasih rindu

Hingga tanpa kusedari

Ada beberapa titisan rindu yang bertakung

Di mata sepetku

Aduhai

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Setelah bergelar graduan universiti

Namun

Masa yang dijanjikan Tuhan

Datang lagi

Siapa sangka kita akan bertemu kembali

Sungguh cantik perancangan Ilahi

Dihilangkan-Nya saat kita memerlukan

Diadakan-Nya saat kita benar-benar mengharapkan

Sungguh

Allah Maha Mendengar 

Doa hamba-Nya

Walau sehari 

Bila bersamamu

Kurasakan berhari-hari

Setiap saat yang kita luangkan bersama

Begitu bernilai bagiku

Bertukar cerita

Berkongsi rahsia

Seperti selalu

Sudah kuduga berita gembira bakal aku dengar

Dari mulutmu

Sungguh aku bahagia 

Mendengar semua cerita menarik 

Tentang perkembangan dirimu

Kini tiada lagi kerisauan yang datang mengganggu

Kau sudah bertemu kebahagiaanmu

Insya-Allah

Akan kudoakan selalu

Pertemuan itu bukanlah pertemuan akhir kita

Kuyakini akan ada satu waktu

Kita bakal dipertemukan lagi

Hari konvokesyenmu

Akan kuhadiahkan sesuatu

Yang bisa memberi makna dalam hidupmu

Tentang persahabatan kita

Juga tanda penghargaanku atas

Kejayaanmu meraih segulung ijazah itu

Biar rindu ini terus bercambah dalam hati

Kerna itulah tandanya

Berkembangnya rasa kasih antara kita

Ukhuwah fillah

Salam.

Dua hari lepas, aku bertemu dengan Kak Nadhu, sahabat lamaku. Sahabat yang pertama kali aku kenali semasa kami sama-sama mengambil subjek Sciences of Hadis. Bila diingat kembali detik-detik pertemuan kami, rasa lucu pula. Aku teringat betapa pemalunya Kak Nadhu masa tu. Tapi tak sangka, aku yang pemalu ni pun tiba-tiba boleh memberanikan diri untuk menyapanya dahulu. Sungguh manis pertemuan kami sebenarnya. Mana taknya. Semuanya telah diatus dan dirancang oleh-Nya. Dia yang berkehendakkan kami bersahabat dan berukhuwah di atas redha-Nya. Sungguh aku merasakan sangat bahagia dengan pertemuan ini.

Kembali kepada ceritaku. Pada hari pertemuan semula antara aku dan Kak Nadhu, kami bertemu di HS kafe pada mulanya. Sambil menunggunya, aku makan buah mangga dan tembikai. Beberapa minit kemudian, nampaklah kelibat Kak Nadhu berjalan ke arahku. Dia berbaju kurung coklat, dipadankan dengan tudung kuning. Ayunya! Semakin dia mendekati, entah kenapa hatiku terasa semakin sebak. Bila dia sampai saja di meja tempat aku duduk, dengan tidak semena-mena mataku sudah mula bertakung. Tunggu masa saja untuk air mata itu jatuh membasahi pipiku. Namun, seboleh-bolehnya aku menahan air mata itu daripada menitis. Aku bahagia sebenarnya dapat bertemu lagi dengan Kak Nadhu dan aku menangis tanda bahagianya aku kerana saat itu akhirnya rinduku pada Kak Nadhu selama ini terubat bila dapat melihat wajah manisnya lagi. Allah saja yang tahu bagaimana bahagianya aku dengan pertemuan itu.

Mana tidaknya. Cuba bayangkan. Semasa Kak Nadhu dalam semester akhirnya di UIA, kami sudah agak jarang berhubung antara satu sama lain. Tidak tahu perkembangan diri masing-masing. Yalah, aku pun tak mahu mengganggunya memandangkan itu adalah semester akhirnya di sini. Mesti terlalu banyak hal yang perlu diuruskannya. Tapi setiap hari aku akau terfikirkan dirinya terus. Aku akan terus tertanya-tanya, "Kak Nadhu tidak merindui diriku, kah?" Bila aku kirimkan SMS, tiada satu balasan pun yang aku terima daripadanya. Masa tu aku terus membuat andaian sendiri, "Memang sahlah Kak Nadhu ni sibuk!"

Hari berganti hari, semester baru pun mula. Masa tu lagi jarang berhubung dengan Kak Nadhu sebab tanpa aku sedar, Kak Nadhu sudahpun bergelar graduan UIA. Alhamdulillah. Aku bersyukur sangat sebab Kak Nadhu berjaya menyempurnakan pelajarannya di sini dengan sempurna. Tapi dalam masa itu, aku turut berasa kecewa. Mengapa? Kerana kiriman-kiriman SMS ku kepadanya seperti biasa tidak mendatangkan sebarang respon daripadanya. Haa, masa tu, mulalah minda ni buat bermacam-macam andaian lagi. "Kak Nadhu ni, marahkan aku kah?" "Kak Nadhu dah tak nak kawan dengan aku kah?" "Aku ada buat salah apa-apakah pada Kak Nadhu?" Macam-macam sangkaan buruk datang menyelinap masuk dalam fikiran. Astaghfirullah, berdosanya aku rasakan bila teringat balik semua sangkaan-sangkaan ni.

Tapi pada pertemuan kami yang telah dirancang baik oleh Allah kelmarin, akhirnya semua sangkaanku terjawab dengan penjelasan yang diberikan oleh Kak Nadhu. 

"Maaflah, Zimah. Lepas je kita habis, kita memang tak sempat nak contact siapa-siapa. Terlalu banyak hal yang nak diuruskan. Maaflah kalau Zimah terasa dengan perbuatan kita."

Terharu sangat mendengar pengakuan Kak Nadhu. Sejujurnya, aku tak marah jauh sekali berang bila tidak menerima sebarang balasan SMS daripada Kak Nadhu sebelum ni. Sebab Kak Nadhu bukannya tak balas langsung semua SMS ku padanya. Cuma ada beberapa SMS ku saja yang sempat dibalasnya. Tapi mungkin silapnya ada pada diriku. Aku yang susah memahami kesibukannya. Tapi bila Kak Nadhu dah jelaskan semuanya, hatiku kembali reda. Alhamdulillah, rasa bahagia sangat sebab dapat hilangkan semua syak wasangka yang menyelubungi diri terhadap Kak Nadhu. Kini baru aku faham. Tak semestinya bila kita sudah tamat pengajian, dah selesai semua urusan kita. Buktinya, tengok sajalah Kak Nadhu. Walaupun dah graduate tapi masih lagi terkejar-kejar dengan urusan yang tak setel-setel sana sini. Semoga Allah permudahkan semuanya pada Kak Nadhu.

Kami sambung perbualan kami di bilikku, di Mahallah Halimah. Sambil berborak, Kak Nadhu bertanya soalan cepumas kepadaku.

"Zimah, Zimah tak ada siapa-siapa lagi kah?"

Erk, terkedu sebentar! Aku mula menggelabah. Macam manalah aku nak jelaskan pada Kak Nadhu tentang soal hati dan perasaan ini. Tapi aku susah nak berahsia dengan Kak Nadhu sebab kami banyak berkongsi hal-hal yang berkaitan dengan cinta dan hati ni bersama-sama. Jadi, demi menghormati rasa prihatinnya kepadaku aku pun jelaskanlah keadaannku sekarang kepadanya. Sebab kadang-kadang aku rasa perlu juga aku ceritakan padanya. Kak Nadhu banyak bagi nasihat dan kata-kata semangat kepadaku tentang masalah ni. Dan alhamdulillah semua nasihatnya sangat membantu. Sebab tulah aku tak pernah rasa kekok ingin bercerita dengannya tentang semua ni.

Tapi masa berlalu begitu pantas. Petang itu, selepas kelas, aku dan Kak Nadhu makan bersama di kafe HS. Masa tu kami sambung berborak lagi. Sampailah azan Asar berkumandang, nak tak nak, aku terpaksa meminta izin untuk meminta diri. Rasa berat sangat hati ni nak berpisah dengan Kak Nadhu. Rasa seperti masa benar-benar cemburu pada kami. Namun, apakan daya, itu kehendak-Nya. Kami terpaksa akur. Semasa bersalaman dengan Kak Nadhu, aku dah mula rasa sebak kembali. Kak Nadhu berbisik kepadaku, "Alahh Zimah. Nanti kita turun KL lagi..." Hmm... lambatnya nak menanti detik tu.

Tapi aku tabahkan hati dan yakinkan diri bahawa sebaik manapun kita merancang perancangan Allah jualah tetap yang terbaik. Walaupun sukar menerima perpisahan ini, tapi aku paksa hatiku untuk redha. Sebab aku yakin ini bukan pertemuan akhir kami. Andai persahabatan ini kerana-Nya, insya-Allah ia tidak akan berpenghujung. Sebaliknya kekal hingga ke syurga.

Terima kasih Kak Nadhu.

Jumpa akak lagi nanti.

:')